Day 5

I lied down the whole afternoon yesterday. Feel not too bad, called for the follow up appointment, it is August 13, and it seems so freaking far!!! I was on hold for 11 minutes then she answered the phone and said: “if you could hold a bit”, and I felt like saying I thought that is what I was doing already, she then put me on hold for 7 more minutes. Then she came and asked me for a number, I couldn’t understand a thing about the whole number question, so I said you need my phone number? She repeated what she needed, and then I said my home number? Then she said more rudely, your card number, so I finally understood. Of course my wallet was not beside me, so I said in an irritated tone, let me try to get up and get it. She kept asking me questions, phone number, name, address etc, while I was trying to get up and clearly in pain. By the time I reached the wallet she didn't need it anymore, neither were the card in my wallet. I felt like telling her how much of a bitch she was today. :-) She said that she had an appointment for August 13 and I said I needed it for the first week of August, then added are you sure you don't have anything then? She wasn't too pleased with my question. I didn't really care. She gave me the smart: “I have either July 18, or August 13, which one would you like”? I almost said, why don't you go F... yourself, you well know that July 18 is in 3 freaking days. This would not have helped the situation, I think? So I said I will stick to the August 13. Then I hang up. If I get there on August 13 and I don't have an appointment I won’t be too surprised!


This morning my husband went back to work, and my sister will be with me until next Friday. 2 minutes after Randy left the house, my very tall glass of water got spilled everywhere. I looked at the water so discouraged, as we have a wood floor, and it was right in the spot where I need to get up, so I didn't know what to do. I managed to get up, and put a towel over it. When my sister arrived at 9:30 she had to clean it up. Good start!! I was so craving pancake, but can’t have the fat and oily one, so I was so happy when my sister arrived with the red mills buckwheat pancake cooked with no oil. We put bananas and strawberry on it and a tiny bit of honey, it was so delicious! I could eat that everyday! I am going to try to go sit on our balcony for a bit today, but I have to wait a bit as I just took a shower and my scar is burning from standing up a bit longer. Sucks, and annoying! It is kind of nice though not to care about makeup and hair, although I look like a “mmm” don’t know what I should called myself? Let’s try an homeless looking woman mixted with a drunk woman and someone who hasn’t sleep for days. I am very pretty ladies and gentleman right now. My face is also so pale that I could be the Geisha in the movie Miss Butterfly. I wouldn’t even need the white powder.

It is weird as when I touch my belly I don’t have any sensation. I know I touch it, because I am doing it myself but I can’t feel anything. It is normal and feeling should be coming back after a while. I hope so. J I don’t want to be cooking against the stove and get a burn tummy because I can’t feel anything. My feet are so cold today, weird as it is so warm inside.