It has been almost 2 month after my operation. This week has been good for the pain in my stomach. Except on Tuesday, I did my first work out in 2 months, and I had afterward, "electric" shock feeling around my scar. So I obviously did too much. At this point I have to mention how after an operation such as this, you brain is totally in fog mode for so long after. I feel so incompetent at work and me who is generally so organized I am totally lost. I don't know how much more time this will last. I will update you. I had the ok from the doctor to have S... word. And frankly it doesn't feel so good right now, it feels like a burning feeling. So hopefully this will not last either. I red somewhere that this is normal after my operation.
Otherwise life is becoming as it was before slowly but surely. I never thought that my come back to work would be so difficult. Thanks god for my 2 directors for being on vacation at the same time, the second week that I came back!!!! The first week, was awefull!!! So tired, couldn't understand what I was doing. Second week was better, as no one was there, so I just had to "maintain" the office. Third week, not that bad, still very lost, can't think, can't organise my thought, and take forever to do thing that I normally take few minutes to do. We will see how week 4 will go, I wanted to take a course in 15 days, I think I will skip this semester...
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
It has been a while.
It has been a while since I wrote in here. 5 more days, and it would be my first month anniversary since my operation. Time went slow yet quick. Weird. I am good to walk now, I still lie down a lot though, my back is really bad and I can't wait to get back to training. My scar is healing really well. I still have 7 chirurgical tape on my scar, they have to be all gone by next week, as I have my follow up appointment. So I will remove 1 per day, they stayed there much longer then I thought, they were suppose to fall down in the first 2 weeks. So I thought to remove one a day... You would think after talking 2-3 shower a day they would be gone by now.
I am still very bored at home, my husband went to the Central Park Lodges last night as he / we volunteer there once a month. Since the seat are not very comfy I didn't go, and I was also so exhausted. And tonight he also has something, pretty depressing as usually at least at night I have him to spend some time with me or we go for a car ride, so I was pretty depress today about it. He might also have to work Sunday. What a shitty and long and boring and lonely week.
It is much easier to get up now, and my stomach is going down. I believe that only hard core sit up will take care of the rest, we will see what Dr. Kives will say about it. I am able to laugh although not completely pleasant to do so. My 6 weeks with no exercise or anything else... is harder to handle then I thought. I am hoping that the doctor will remove that once I see her. Gosh!
I am so thankful for this summer for not being hot, I would have truly suffered from it. I think my recuperation went very well, I read on internet that some woman bleed a lot, and they have infection with their scar, I had none of that, well except for my P. I can't wait to go back to work.
I am still very bored at home, my husband went to the Central Park Lodges last night as he / we volunteer there once a month. Since the seat are not very comfy I didn't go, and I was also so exhausted. And tonight he also has something, pretty depressing as usually at least at night I have him to spend some time with me or we go for a car ride, so I was pretty depress today about it. He might also have to work Sunday. What a shitty and long and boring and lonely week.
It is much easier to get up now, and my stomach is going down. I believe that only hard core sit up will take care of the rest, we will see what Dr. Kives will say about it. I am able to laugh although not completely pleasant to do so. My 6 weeks with no exercise or anything else... is harder to handle then I thought. I am hoping that the doctor will remove that once I see her. Gosh!
I am so thankful for this summer for not being hot, I would have truly suffered from it. I think my recuperation went very well, I read on internet that some woman bleed a lot, and they have infection with their scar, I had none of that, well except for my P. I can't wait to go back to work.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Better days
Today was a good day. This morning wasn't so good, I got in a little something with my hubby, totally my fault. Hey, I am allowed to be bitchy once a day. COME ON!! I was highly, highly depressed. Perfect day for precious Christine to spend the afternoon with me. It was so awesome ! I kept talking and talking, thanks god she is a great listener! She might not come back though LOL.
We walked 3 bloc which was the most walking I have done since my operation, we had a goal in mind: Baskin Robbin ice cream. DELICIOUS! I tryed lactaid for the first time, as I am lactose intolerant. I know, I know I shouldn't eat it, but! It did work, it was so nice, I couldn't finish it though, since the operation chocolate or sweet thing, are so much more sweet it is weird. I also looooove sushi and right now just thinking about it make me so nautious! I thought that tonight I would walk bent down because of all the walking but it wasn't that bad at all. I am getting better slowly but surely. After the ice cream we came back and she stayed until 6:30 it was so nice to have company. This is the second time she came and really I can't express enough how thankful I am!
It is now 12:50 in the morning, I can't sleep, I feel shaky, second night in the row. I am writing to my brother on MSN which is great. He always make me laugh. I feel weak for the second night, I don't know why, it is weird. I guess it is normal. Stomach pain was really not too bad today, actually it was the best day since my operation. Great, amazing how we can heal despite pretty big operation.
Anyway, I guess sleep should be my next move now, even if I am fully awake. Too bad I don't have any rum, because I am sure that would be a great smart move right now!! HA HA
We walked 3 bloc which was the most walking I have done since my operation, we had a goal in mind: Baskin Robbin ice cream. DELICIOUS! I tryed lactaid for the first time, as I am lactose intolerant. I know, I know I shouldn't eat it, but! It did work, it was so nice, I couldn't finish it though, since the operation chocolate or sweet thing, are so much more sweet it is weird. I also looooove sushi and right now just thinking about it make me so nautious! I thought that tonight I would walk bent down because of all the walking but it wasn't that bad at all. I am getting better slowly but surely. After the ice cream we came back and she stayed until 6:30 it was so nice to have company. This is the second time she came and really I can't express enough how thankful I am!
It is now 12:50 in the morning, I can't sleep, I feel shaky, second night in the row. I am writing to my brother on MSN which is great. He always make me laugh. I feel weak for the second night, I don't know why, it is weird. I guess it is normal. Stomach pain was really not too bad today, actually it was the best day since my operation. Great, amazing how we can heal despite pretty big operation.
Anyway, I guess sleep should be my next move now, even if I am fully awake. Too bad I don't have any rum, because I am sure that would be a great smart move right now!! HA HA
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
My first time out.
Good morning ladies and gentlemen, for your entertainment today, I will try to be positive.
So let's talk about what positive things I did yesterday. I went by myself to the shoppers drug mart that we have by our home. There is a person named Helen. She works in the natural product and we always talk to each other, she is really awesome. So we talked a bit, she asked me how my recuperation is going, etc. so then I said well I guess I should go back home. She said why don't you just walk around here a bit, and she started walking with me around the store. I started laughing and I said, are you playing little nurse that make me walk? She smiled and she said no, no I just felt like taking a walk. MM MMMMM, I think she was more concern about me, and I thought that was the sweetest thing ever. I was going to buy a chips and chocolate as I was depressed (positively depress of course!), but because she was with me the whole time, I felt shy to buy it as we always talk about nutrition and how I exercise, and eat well. So thanks to her, I took a walk longer AND I avoided an intake of about 750 calories.
Second positive things of yesterday, my husband and I we walked to Frikking, a patio restaurant very close by where we live, and we had dinner there. I was VERY miserable last night, and after we sat he said: did you forget that in a month, we will have our third wedding anniversary, and our 7 years being together, that just made it, it put a smile on my face, I did kind of "forget about it".
Third positive things: My very good friend will spend the afternoon Thursday with me, is that tomorrow? I don't even know what day we are.. LOL
Fourth: Erin is writting me regurlarly and that is really awesome and appreciated!!
After that, well let say no more in the power of positiveness!!
Ta ta for now....
So let's talk about what positive things I did yesterday. I went by myself to the shoppers drug mart that we have by our home. There is a person named Helen. She works in the natural product and we always talk to each other, she is really awesome. So we talked a bit, she asked me how my recuperation is going, etc. so then I said well I guess I should go back home. She said why don't you just walk around here a bit, and she started walking with me around the store. I started laughing and I said, are you playing little nurse that make me walk? She smiled and she said no, no I just felt like taking a walk. MM MMMMM, I think she was more concern about me, and I thought that was the sweetest thing ever. I was going to buy a chips and chocolate as I was depressed (positively depress of course!), but because she was with me the whole time, I felt shy to buy it as we always talk about nutrition and how I exercise, and eat well. So thanks to her, I took a walk longer AND I avoided an intake of about 750 calories.
Second positive things of yesterday, my husband and I we walked to Frikking, a patio restaurant very close by where we live, and we had dinner there. I was VERY miserable last night, and after we sat he said: did you forget that in a month, we will have our third wedding anniversary, and our 7 years being together, that just made it, it put a smile on my face, I did kind of "forget about it".
Third positive things: My very good friend will spend the afternoon Thursday with me, is that tomorrow? I don't even know what day we are.. LOL
Fourth: Erin is writting me regurlarly and that is really awesome and appreciated!!
After that, well let say no more in the power of positiveness!!
Ta ta for now....
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Getting there.
Tuesday morning. What will I do today? MMMM. nothing for a change. LOL Might as well laugh about it. ! I am getting better each day. I have been sneezing a lot since the operation, and I am trying to think if it is related to the operation or if it is some allergies. Geez I am sure that it is not because of all the dust sitting in the appartment.
I frankly can't wait to go back to work. I am really bored at this point. Not yet better enough though to sit for 8 hours at a desk. It will come though. I slept pretty good. I woke up twice to go to the washroom, which is a big improvement. Today, I am going to attempt going outside on my own. please don't tell my husband he is going to worry. :-) I can't wait for Randy to get home every night to see him and also because we always go for a car ride, and that usually is the best moment of my day as I finally feel the fresh air from outside. My brain is clearer this week, and I have more energy as well. Yesterday I over did things a bit, so my tummy was a bit hurting last night, so I am staying quiet today. It is not the time to start doing crazy things. I am now able to laugh more, walking is a lot better. I was able to look at my scar and it really does look good. I am so impress by my surgeon work, I knew she would be amazing. She is one of the rare person that I trust. She is amazing!
Now, let me see who can I call and spend some time? Anyone? I wonder if anyone is reading my blog anymore? :-)
I frankly can't wait to go back to work. I am really bored at this point. Not yet better enough though to sit for 8 hours at a desk. It will come though. I slept pretty good. I woke up twice to go to the washroom, which is a big improvement. Today, I am going to attempt going outside on my own. please don't tell my husband he is going to worry. :-) I can't wait for Randy to get home every night to see him and also because we always go for a car ride, and that usually is the best moment of my day as I finally feel the fresh air from outside. My brain is clearer this week, and I have more energy as well. Yesterday I over did things a bit, so my tummy was a bit hurting last night, so I am staying quiet today. It is not the time to start doing crazy things. I am now able to laugh more, walking is a lot better. I was able to look at my scar and it really does look good. I am so impress by my surgeon work, I knew she would be amazing. She is one of the rare person that I trust. She is amazing!
Now, let me see who can I call and spend some time? Anyone? I wonder if anyone is reading my blog anymore? :-)
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Starting Week 3,
Today is not really a good day. I am exhausted. Nature give me my monthly gift, and thruthfully I could do without it. I am miserable. I got up, and didn't sleep so well, I lyed down on the coach, and went back to bed until 1:00. Randy kept saying that I should eat something. I didn't feel like it. Finally around 1:00 he asked me what I could eat, and the only thing I wanted was hot dog, I felt awful, as he had to go to the store and get it and it was pouring outside. He took a long time to come back and I started to worry, he had to go to 2 differents store to find what I wanted. he is so adorable. I am so freaking tired to be in the house. I usually can't even stand to be in the house for a full day, I have been home for 3 weeks now. Thanks god for the short car ride. I am getting better every day though, it just feel so long. What is the most annoying now is not the pain, or the stomach, well maybe a bit, it is the tiredness. So tired!!! I can't wait for this to go away. I feel all my muscle dissapearing from the lack of walking, and exercising. I have so much work to do to get back on shape it is not even funny.
My lovely friend Christine came yesterday, it was so nice and refreshing to see her AND to see a new face. She always cheer me up and it is so nice to feel I can be myself with her. I can't wait to get back training at the gym, she is my training buddies, and our moto is: if you are not pucking yet, you can do more ! LOL We are pretty crazy!
Funny how when you are sick you can see clearly who is your friend, and who doesn't really care, same for the family. My sister has been amazing with me for the past 7 days and I clearly couldn't have done it without her. I am going to miss her baking and chocolate muffin but most important I am going to miss having her around. We always been there for each other in difficult moment and having her again this time, was so comforting.
Anywoo, I am going to let you go already as my pellow is calling me again.
My lovely friend Christine came yesterday, it was so nice and refreshing to see her AND to see a new face. She always cheer me up and it is so nice to feel I can be myself with her. I can't wait to get back training at the gym, she is my training buddies, and our moto is: if you are not pucking yet, you can do more ! LOL We are pretty crazy!
Funny how when you are sick you can see clearly who is your friend, and who doesn't really care, same for the family. My sister has been amazing with me for the past 7 days and I clearly couldn't have done it without her. I am going to miss her baking and chocolate muffin but most important I am going to miss having her around. We always been there for each other in difficult moment and having her again this time, was so comforting.
Anywoo, I am going to let you go already as my pellow is calling me again.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
But ... how much is too much?
Today was the eating day. My sister made some chocolate chips muffin, and ho boy! Where they delicious! They were low fat, thanks god. Instead of oil, she put apple sauce. I had 1 and discovered how great they were. I then had a second one. Then a bit later I went in the kitchen and had a third.. My sister put one aside for my husband in a plastic bag. She went to the washroom so I went to the kitchen and had a fourth one. LOL She caught me, and I felt like a little child getting caught by someone. She said that she wasn’t to impress, between 2 laughs, she said it wasn’t funny and that I wasn’t reasonable. Then we burst out laughing. I just didn’t want to control myself they were so delicious! Before we drove her home, she put another one aside for my husband and she said that I was better not to eat it.
For dinner we bought Mr. Subs and I had a subway meatball….. 12 inches!! I never eat that ever, I usually hardly finish the 6 inches. I ate it all, so weird. Today was a good day, I prepared my breakfast, and the lunch, with my sister help of course. My second shower, I was able to stand without holding myself for a good 8 minutes. I am definitely improving. I was able to laugh today slowly without too much pain. Finally! I was still very tired and out of it. But that is normal, it will improve as time goes. I am watching Bootcamp on TV, and I am thinking of all my muffins LOL. I am eating right now a chips and a chocolate bar on top of everything. I just told Randy that I ate really bad today, but I will not do that after today, he started to tell me how I shouldn’t do that, and I said I didn’t want to hear it. Seriously. I know I shouldn’t, I don’t want to hear it still. It is not because I am being irresponsible with my food one day, that mean I am out of control. Sometime it feels damn good not to think about what you eat. We are going to watch 2 short movies, and I was so excited as I thought they were new. They are Laurel and Hardy, old movies, Randy just told me that we already saw them, so I am not so excited about it anymore. But I will watch them to be with my husband. OH! and by the way, Marie you said you were going to read my blog tonight, just so you know, Randy gave me his chocolate chips muffin. So I ate it. I add only 5 muffins today. Marie-Claude this is for you: NANANANANANAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! So long Suckaaaaaaaaa! :-)
For dinner we bought Mr. Subs and I had a subway meatball….. 12 inches!! I never eat that ever, I usually hardly finish the 6 inches. I ate it all, so weird. Today was a good day, I prepared my breakfast, and the lunch, with my sister help of course. My second shower, I was able to stand without holding myself for a good 8 minutes. I am definitely improving. I was able to laugh today slowly without too much pain. Finally! I was still very tired and out of it. But that is normal, it will improve as time goes. I am watching Bootcamp on TV, and I am thinking of all my muffins LOL. I am eating right now a chips and a chocolate bar on top of everything. I just told Randy that I ate really bad today, but I will not do that after today, he started to tell me how I shouldn’t do that, and I said I didn’t want to hear it. Seriously. I know I shouldn’t, I don’t want to hear it still. It is not because I am being irresponsible with my food one day, that mean I am out of control. Sometime it feels damn good not to think about what you eat. We are going to watch 2 short movies, and I was so excited as I thought they were new. They are Laurel and Hardy, old movies, Randy just told me that we already saw them, so I am not so excited about it anymore. But I will watch them to be with my husband. OH! and by the way, Marie you said you were going to read my blog tonight, just so you know, Randy gave me his chocolate chips muffin. So I ate it. I add only 5 muffins today. Marie-Claude this is for you: NANANANANANAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! So long Suckaaaaaaaaa! :-)
Day something. Can't remember anymore too many of them
Last night, I slept in my bed, it wasn't that comfortable, but it was nice to be in my bed almost 2 weeks after sleeping on the damn coach! I am getting better, so slow though, I can't lift up anything yet, just carrying a plate hurt my stomach, pretty crazy. I made my own breakfast this morning, it felt good. Yesterday, my sister and I cooked the lunch together, well, she did 90% of it. She mixed the ground chicken, with onion, parsley, bread crumbs, and she brought it to me at the table and I made the balls. She cut everything else, and made kind of a stew style meal, it was so delicious! My arm was killing me by the end of me making those balls. Pretty pathetics! I also made dinner, I put a breast chicken, with seasoning and potato cute in square and my sister put it in the oven for me. So dinner was ready when Randy came home. This is far from the fancy cooking I like to do. It is pouring outside today, and surprisingly, I find great comfort in hearing the rain. Well, since I can't enjoy the sun, no one should be allowed to neither. HAHA just joking!!
My stomach is getting better, I think it is down now, almost normal size. I should have asked my surgeon to remove all the fat as well when she operated me, what was I thinking? :-) I am able to stand up much longer, and I stand pretty straight now. Laughing is getting to be pleasant again, not completely there but almost. 3 tapes covering my scar are going to fall off any moment now, noooooo, I like them they feel safe. I have that annoying feeling now, constantly there that I am getting my period, it is not hurting it is just uncomfortable, day and night. I can't wait for this to go away.
The highlight of my day yesterday, I talked to an old friend, Laurie, that really really made my day! She is adorable! I can't wait to be able to go out and have coffee with her!
Except that nothing new. Feeling a bit ( a lot) crappy right now and a bit depress right now. I will make it away. Maybe I will go for a run? How funny am I!!!!
My stomach is getting better, I think it is down now, almost normal size. I should have asked my surgeon to remove all the fat as well when she operated me, what was I thinking? :-) I am able to stand up much longer, and I stand pretty straight now. Laughing is getting to be pleasant again, not completely there but almost. 3 tapes covering my scar are going to fall off any moment now, noooooo, I like them they feel safe. I have that annoying feeling now, constantly there that I am getting my period, it is not hurting it is just uncomfortable, day and night. I can't wait for this to go away.
The highlight of my day yesterday, I talked to an old friend, Laurie, that really really made my day! She is adorable! I can't wait to be able to go out and have coffee with her!
Except that nothing new. Feeling a bit ( a lot) crappy right now and a bit depress right now. I will make it away. Maybe I will go for a run? How funny am I!!!!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
The wild night of . . .
Yes the wild night of insomnia!! It is 3:30am I can't sleep at all, pretty annoyed. Last night I had such a great night with no waking up. I am starving as well,, I just had a big bowl of cereal, and could eat a lot more. I just sent e-mails to friend, I can't believe myself how awake I am right now. I don't know how I am going to fall asleep at all. Where is the hammer?
I tryed to sleep in my bed with little hubby and stayed there until 12:15am but I couldn't sleep, my tummy felt so wrong, I still need to sleep half sitted. I am trying not to be annoyed right now, at least I am not working in the morning . . . I really think that this will be a white night. Not sure that expression exist in english, if it doesn't make sens, just ignore the sentence. :-)
There is my favorite advertising right now, a cashier is checking items, and there is that red M&M runnning, then a boxe come and he can't escape anymore, and he sit on the scanner and he makes such a funny faces, I am sure when I will feel better I won't find it as funny LOL.
Too bad I can't go for a drive.... I just picture how freaked out Randy would be to get up and not finding me in the appartment. Talking about him, he bought a 8 mm movies machine lately, YES on top of his 16 mm god I love him for that LOL. So, tonight I asked him to look at his "short movies" when he was a baby, he was so cute and adorable. In one of them he got for Christmas a bowling set, among many gifts, and you see him in the hallway putting it up, and throwing the ball at it like there is no tomorrow. It was so adorable. Another one he got a spank on the butt from his dad, he was such a monster, kind of scarie to have kids, when his dad or mom tell me story about how he was as a kid, it almost scare me not to have kids at all LOL. Anywoo, ladies and gentleman it is now 3:40am so I guess I should shut the computer off, and watch some cooking show.
I tryed to sleep in my bed with little hubby and stayed there until 12:15am but I couldn't sleep, my tummy felt so wrong, I still need to sleep half sitted. I am trying not to be annoyed right now, at least I am not working in the morning . . . I really think that this will be a white night. Not sure that expression exist in english, if it doesn't make sens, just ignore the sentence. :-)
There is my favorite advertising right now, a cashier is checking items, and there is that red M&M runnning, then a boxe come and he can't escape anymore, and he sit on the scanner and he makes such a funny faces, I am sure when I will feel better I won't find it as funny LOL.
Too bad I can't go for a drive.... I just picture how freaked out Randy would be to get up and not finding me in the appartment. Talking about him, he bought a 8 mm movies machine lately, YES on top of his 16 mm god I love him for that LOL. So, tonight I asked him to look at his "short movies" when he was a baby, he was so cute and adorable. In one of them he got for Christmas a bowling set, among many gifts, and you see him in the hallway putting it up, and throwing the ball at it like there is no tomorrow. It was so adorable. Another one he got a spank on the butt from his dad, he was such a monster, kind of scarie to have kids, when his dad or mom tell me story about how he was as a kid, it almost scare me not to have kids at all LOL. Anywoo, ladies and gentleman it is now 3:40am so I guess I should shut the computer off, and watch some cooking show.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Day 7 since I am home, litterally AT home.
Today was not that bad. I slept last night through the night. Which didn’t happen since the operation, and as a matter of fact it didn’t happen for years. This morning my energy level was the best since the operation, it slowly went down after lunch, but that is a good beginning. The highlight of the day today was that mom called at 9:30 this morning, which was a great surprise as usually we talked at night. The other thing is my sister cleaned the whole apartment (my husband did wash the bath this morning) it felt so great and it felt that I could breath again. It is really hard not to be able to clean my own house. I did though cleaned the sink in the washroom this morning as I don’t have to bend down to do this. I also did cut some tomato and made my spinach salad, big day LOL My sister made 2 breads, buckwheat and flax bread, really healthy and so good with molasses. I have been eating extra clean since the operation. I have to, as not only my hemoglobin is low, but not being able to exercise, I don’t want to gain weight. Scar is starting to be itchy and the tape that cover the scar is slowly starting to peel off. A little scary to loose that tape as it feel so safe covering the cut. I have realized today that for the last 11 days the only faces that I saw was my husband and my sister… Good think I like their faces. I started to read a book today, but I can’t concentrate yet.
The Anesthesia is slowly coming out of my body; I read that on website as well that it does takes time. Laughing is slowly starting to feel better and doesn’t hurt as much. I was able to lye down on the bed this afternoon with my legs folded, still not that comfortable though, too bad as I am so tired of sleeping on the coach, and without my hubby, I miss falling asleep on his shoulder. Tremendously. I am hoping to have more energy tomorrow.
The Anesthesia is slowly coming out of my body; I read that on website as well that it does takes time. Laughing is slowly starting to feel better and doesn’t hurt as much. I was able to lye down on the bed this afternoon with my legs folded, still not that comfortable though, too bad as I am so tired of sleeping on the coach, and without my hubby, I miss falling asleep on his shoulder. Tremendously. I am hoping to have more energy tomorrow.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Don't care about writing today
Well, this is the update of today, I don't care about writing today. My sister gave me a nice pedicure today which was really awesome. We were both in a bad mood which was then perfect as we then didn't get on each other nerve. We laughed about it...
Highlight of the day: A co-worker sent me a funny picture.. I burst out laughing. I have gum balls at my desk and he took 2 of them.... see below.
Highlight of the day: A co-worker sent me a funny picture.. I burst out laughing. I have gum balls at my desk and he took 2 of them.... see below.
A day in Nadia's very busy life after the Myomectomy
9:05 Woke up from noise outside
9:06 Needed to get up to the washroom, waiting in case Randy get up to help me
9:20 Got up, and went to the washroom, had a visit: Poo-Poo friend, always hurt the tummy. See a spider on the floor, managed to grab the Vim with bleach, sprayed it, died. Done!
9:35 Returned to my living area, I switched to the half sited Futon, less effort then the bed
9:37 Randy go to the washroom, Damn you couldn’t you not get up earlier! Got excited to see Randy, I am so hungry!!
9:38 He is going back to bed he look exhausted didn’t want to ask anything
9:42 Wanted to watch TV but controller is by the bed. Magazines are too far to reach. Able to reach my baseball cap on the futon, and wear it, as the ceiling fan makes me dizzy. Took a sip of the leftover water from yesterday, I am very thirsty. And, hungry.
9:46 Moved a bit so I can get a magazine, Chatelaine, I am starting to be able to read now, head less in a daze. Started looking at the magazine.
9:51 Just saw how much dust there is on the TV furniture, I can actually see it from where I am, difficult as there is nothing I can do about it other then ask my husband or my sister to wipe it. Pretty annoying. No wonder why my eyes are so burning.
9:55 My love appeared in the doorway! We talked…
10:10 He started preparing my breakfast, scramble eggs, slice tomato, turkey sandwich meat on a bun. Our Sunday breakfast usually. Miam Miam.
10:15 Getting up to see if I can eat at the table. Eating my breakfast at the table.
10:45 Done eating my breakfast. Went to the washroom, sat on the toilette. It is still my most comfortable place of the house. I looked down and saw that I could have a second breakfast from all the crumbs on my shirt. Looked at the spider I killed earlier. Realized that I have ruined the basket as the bleached put a big yellow spot on it, how smart was that. Kind of laughing about it.
10:49 Needed to lie down. So tired already. Checked briefly my e-mail, no e-mails, what a surprise! L Going to lie down now.
11:15 Randy came to the room and put a movie for me. He put Phantom of the Opera. How well does he know me! Stomach feels wrong so it help me to change my mind. I wish I could sign like her, yeah in my dream baby!
12:00 I needed to get up and take a shower. This was the longest shower ever, I would say a good 12 minutes!!!! I never have done that yet. I found the trick, I stand up my back against the wall, my hand resting and putting a pressure on the door. It help me to stand up longer, I washed hair, Plax my mouth, floss, brush teeth, wash myself. I found how to “wash” my legs, as I can’t get to them yet. I used Randy body wash it is a gel, I poured it over my legs and then rinsed it. It smells a bit manly but hey who care.
12:22 Randy asked me if I am hungry, first time since my operation that I don’t need to eat for a long period of time. Well by long, it is not that long. Not hungry but eat 4 baby carrot and a tablespoon of humus to keep my metabolism running.
12:25 Went back to lie down. Watched the rest of the movie.
1:05 Went to the washroom
1:13 Grab my old phone, and discovered that Celia called me last night!! I am going to call her today, she think that a lot of people are calling me. Very funny.
1:15 Randy is heating up my lunch as I finally convinced him to go to the baseball game.
1:20 I just noticed that Randy dusted the TV furniture, I asked him if he did, and he said yes. OMG best moment of today. It was so bothering me.
1:27 Went back to the washroom, Randy just left. Putting my movie back and finishing eating.
1:45 The stupid blue-Ray just froze. Calisse de Tabernacle!
1:50 Back from the washroom. I am slowing down on drinking water, I pee too much. I brushed my teeth, have to do it while I am up there. I looked at myself in the mirror and was pleasantly surprised to see that for the first time since my operation, I have color in my face. I can’t no longer be a cast in the Geisha movie. Ah well! I am still going toward the ballerina dream, moi, Tutu Couture. (Inside Joke with Cam my director, if you are reading this, this is just for you). The sun is back and looking at the TV furniture, I think Randy dusted the first 3 inches of the furniture, pretty funny. I am going to ask my sister tomorrow.
1:58 Blue Ray up and running again, finishing my movie, or will I?
2:00 Randy just text me, he is playing against the big guys, those people are huge and scary. Seriously. I wished I could be there to see how brilliant my husband will be on the field.
2:30 I finished the movie. I am going to call Celia, then take a nap.
2:55 Just hang up with Celia, she is so adorable! We talked about girly thing. It was so awesome to talk to her. After, I was so freaking tired. Going to see Mister toilette, and then lie down probably until my lovely husband come back from the Baseball game.
3:05 Got up, drop the TV controler on the floor, for the lord of god! I succeed in dragging it with my feet to the couch where I lie down. Then successfully grabbed it with my hand after I lied down. I went on the opposite side of the coach as I have been to the same side for a week now.
3:18 The other side of the coach is not comfortable slowly, I get up. I pulled something in my stomach. Lie down again on the other side. Now the cushion on the futon is in my way, I can’t see the TV. I move myself a bit, use the TV controller to move the damn cushion. Moved a bit only, but good enough for now.
4:06 Got a called from Randy, he is on his way home from Baseball. He had a good game, he pulled his hamstring, what’s new? Every time he plays he hurt something LOL it must be a guy thing. He offer me a subs. I am starving and said yes. Meatball 6 inches whole wheat, green pepper, green olives, they didn’t have mushroom and I usually put hot pepper, but the nurse said to avoid spicy for a while. I need the washroom, but too tired to get up, so I wait for my love, to help me to get up.
4:24 Watching TV on how they make marchino chery. Clearly have nothing do to. Randy just got home. Went to the washroom then we put the godfather part 3 one while we eat.
5:14 Washroom
6:08 Washroom
6:21 Got up to grab 4 Cherry. Start movie again.
7:10 Freaking fed up, asked Randy how much more for the movie. He said 50 min!!! For Christ’s sake, why is this movie so long. I said I had to do something else for a bit. I went to the balcony, nice to breath in fresh air. I was good the whole day, today 7:10 was the miserable moment of the day. I hear the neighbors trying to do something, open something and he keep saying “fucking suck, man! It fucking suck!” Now he is whistling all happy again. I guess I am not the only one that have mood swing. Talking about him, I heard him clinking dishes about 30 times a day. I am not too sure what he is doing. Not sure I am that interested to know. I was going to get up, but I had a half sneeze, the first since my operation. Stomach hurt now. Neighbors open his fridge and a container, sound like margarine. He is now cooking something. So weird to hear everything he does. I hear Randy cooking too. I haven’t prepared a meal in a week now, and you would think I enjoy it, but I can’t wait to get back to house duties. He has done the laundry too and everything else.
7:39 Going back inside.
8:04 Texting my very best friend Christine. She told me she was an awful friend this weekend. I told her she was damn right. All jokes though. It was so lovely talking to her, it really brought my spirit back. She always does. She is such a lovely person.
8:25 Eating steak and spinaches salad made with love by my hubby. Watching the Simpson.
9:10 Making 2 toast by myself. Like a big girl!
9:25 Washroom
10:00 Going to “bed” leather coach that is.
9:06 Needed to get up to the washroom, waiting in case Randy get up to help me
9:20 Got up, and went to the washroom, had a visit: Poo-Poo friend, always hurt the tummy. See a spider on the floor, managed to grab the Vim with bleach, sprayed it, died. Done!
9:35 Returned to my living area, I switched to the half sited Futon, less effort then the bed
9:37 Randy go to the washroom, Damn you couldn’t you not get up earlier! Got excited to see Randy, I am so hungry!!
9:38 He is going back to bed he look exhausted didn’t want to ask anything
9:42 Wanted to watch TV but controller is by the bed. Magazines are too far to reach. Able to reach my baseball cap on the futon, and wear it, as the ceiling fan makes me dizzy. Took a sip of the leftover water from yesterday, I am very thirsty. And, hungry.
9:46 Moved a bit so I can get a magazine, Chatelaine, I am starting to be able to read now, head less in a daze. Started looking at the magazine.
9:51 Just saw how much dust there is on the TV furniture, I can actually see it from where I am, difficult as there is nothing I can do about it other then ask my husband or my sister to wipe it. Pretty annoying. No wonder why my eyes are so burning.
9:55 My love appeared in the doorway! We talked…
10:10 He started preparing my breakfast, scramble eggs, slice tomato, turkey sandwich meat on a bun. Our Sunday breakfast usually. Miam Miam.
10:15 Getting up to see if I can eat at the table. Eating my breakfast at the table.
10:45 Done eating my breakfast. Went to the washroom, sat on the toilette. It is still my most comfortable place of the house. I looked down and saw that I could have a second breakfast from all the crumbs on my shirt. Looked at the spider I killed earlier. Realized that I have ruined the basket as the bleached put a big yellow spot on it, how smart was that. Kind of laughing about it.
10:49 Needed to lie down. So tired already. Checked briefly my e-mail, no e-mails, what a surprise! L Going to lie down now.
11:15 Randy came to the room and put a movie for me. He put Phantom of the Opera. How well does he know me! Stomach feels wrong so it help me to change my mind. I wish I could sign like her, yeah in my dream baby!
12:00 I needed to get up and take a shower. This was the longest shower ever, I would say a good 12 minutes!!!! I never have done that yet. I found the trick, I stand up my back against the wall, my hand resting and putting a pressure on the door. It help me to stand up longer, I washed hair, Plax my mouth, floss, brush teeth, wash myself. I found how to “wash” my legs, as I can’t get to them yet. I used Randy body wash it is a gel, I poured it over my legs and then rinsed it. It smells a bit manly but hey who care.
12:22 Randy asked me if I am hungry, first time since my operation that I don’t need to eat for a long period of time. Well by long, it is not that long. Not hungry but eat 4 baby carrot and a tablespoon of humus to keep my metabolism running.
12:25 Went back to lie down. Watched the rest of the movie.
1:05 Went to the washroom
1:13 Grab my old phone, and discovered that Celia called me last night!! I am going to call her today, she think that a lot of people are calling me. Very funny.
1:15 Randy is heating up my lunch as I finally convinced him to go to the baseball game.
1:20 I just noticed that Randy dusted the TV furniture, I asked him if he did, and he said yes. OMG best moment of today. It was so bothering me.
1:27 Went back to the washroom, Randy just left. Putting my movie back and finishing eating.
1:45 The stupid blue-Ray just froze. Calisse de Tabernacle!
1:50 Back from the washroom. I am slowing down on drinking water, I pee too much. I brushed my teeth, have to do it while I am up there. I looked at myself in the mirror and was pleasantly surprised to see that for the first time since my operation, I have color in my face. I can’t no longer be a cast in the Geisha movie. Ah well! I am still going toward the ballerina dream, moi, Tutu Couture. (Inside Joke with Cam my director, if you are reading this, this is just for you). The sun is back and looking at the TV furniture, I think Randy dusted the first 3 inches of the furniture, pretty funny. I am going to ask my sister tomorrow.
1:58 Blue Ray up and running again, finishing my movie, or will I?
2:00 Randy just text me, he is playing against the big guys, those people are huge and scary. Seriously. I wished I could be there to see how brilliant my husband will be on the field.
2:30 I finished the movie. I am going to call Celia, then take a nap.
2:55 Just hang up with Celia, she is so adorable! We talked about girly thing. It was so awesome to talk to her. After, I was so freaking tired. Going to see Mister toilette, and then lie down probably until my lovely husband come back from the Baseball game.
3:05 Got up, drop the TV controler on the floor, for the lord of god! I succeed in dragging it with my feet to the couch where I lie down. Then successfully grabbed it with my hand after I lied down. I went on the opposite side of the coach as I have been to the same side for a week now.
3:18 The other side of the coach is not comfortable slowly, I get up. I pulled something in my stomach. Lie down again on the other side. Now the cushion on the futon is in my way, I can’t see the TV. I move myself a bit, use the TV controller to move the damn cushion. Moved a bit only, but good enough for now.
4:06 Got a called from Randy, he is on his way home from Baseball. He had a good game, he pulled his hamstring, what’s new? Every time he plays he hurt something LOL it must be a guy thing. He offer me a subs. I am starving and said yes. Meatball 6 inches whole wheat, green pepper, green olives, they didn’t have mushroom and I usually put hot pepper, but the nurse said to avoid spicy for a while. I need the washroom, but too tired to get up, so I wait for my love, to help me to get up.
4:24 Watching TV on how they make marchino chery. Clearly have nothing do to. Randy just got home. Went to the washroom then we put the godfather part 3 one while we eat.
5:14 Washroom
6:08 Washroom
6:21 Got up to grab 4 Cherry. Start movie again.
7:10 Freaking fed up, asked Randy how much more for the movie. He said 50 min!!! For Christ’s sake, why is this movie so long. I said I had to do something else for a bit. I went to the balcony, nice to breath in fresh air. I was good the whole day, today 7:10 was the miserable moment of the day. I hear the neighbors trying to do something, open something and he keep saying “fucking suck, man! It fucking suck!” Now he is whistling all happy again. I guess I am not the only one that have mood swing. Talking about him, I heard him clinking dishes about 30 times a day. I am not too sure what he is doing. Not sure I am that interested to know. I was going to get up, but I had a half sneeze, the first since my operation. Stomach hurt now. Neighbors open his fridge and a container, sound like margarine. He is now cooking something. So weird to hear everything he does. I hear Randy cooking too. I haven’t prepared a meal in a week now, and you would think I enjoy it, but I can’t wait to get back to house duties. He has done the laundry too and everything else.
7:39 Going back inside.
8:04 Texting my very best friend Christine. She told me she was an awful friend this weekend. I told her she was damn right. All jokes though. It was so lovely talking to her, it really brought my spirit back. She always does. She is such a lovely person.
8:25 Eating steak and spinaches salad made with love by my hubby. Watching the Simpson.
9:10 Making 2 toast by myself. Like a big girl!
9:25 Washroom
10:00 Going to “bed” leather coach that is.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
The day when I was the most depress. 7 that is....
Today is the hardest day. I feel very claustrophobe being in the same 2 spot in the house, both in the living room, either the leather coach lying down, or the futon half sited. I am fed up having to ask for every little things, water, food, Kleenex. Etc etc etc. It has been only 1 week and I have 3 more weeks to go. I was able to keep my spirit up the whole week and not complain but this morning it is not really working. I will not stay like that because this is not me, I am positive and I have to be strong. My stomach feels like if I have my period which I don’t and will not for a couple of week, it is pretty annoying, as I don’t want to have to deal with this, on top of everything else. I didn’t mention that before but my lower stomach is feeling annoying, it feels like I have a 4 inches taped from one side to the other one and that it is really tight, I didn’t really feel it so much after the operation, but now I really feel it. I feel my heart beat weird, beating too loud in my chest and too slow. I know it is only a feeling but kind of worry you.
I am thinking of attempting a car ride, wich mean that I would need to go and walk the hallway, down the stairs, walk and sit in the car. I don’t know if it is realistic as just my short shower standing up kill me every time. Plus, after the operation coming back home, was very painful. We will see. Funny how little normal thing in life get to be so complicated when you are sick. I usually helped people on the street, going down the stairs in the subway with a cane, open the door to someone in the wheelchairs etc. I will really make a point from now one, to do it even more. Every little attentions and help, mean so much. And it is so great when someone think of doing something without you asking for it.
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I went for my car ride, we didn’t go far as bump and turn hurt my stomach but it was so nice to be outside. I really needed that. Nothing better then riding your car with your husband and it was really refreshing. Tomorrow, usually I would play baseball, but I obviously can’t for the rest of the season, I want Randy to go, I don’t think I will have anyone to stay here with me, so Randy doesn’t want to leave me alone, but I am forcing Randy to go, he needs to change his mind and have some fun, plus, the workout will be good. I am having dinner right now, eating some linguini with my favorite marinara sauce and some ground beef. Bless my husband as he can cook! They say that eating meat will help to heal the wound, weird. Anyway, I need to eat as much red meat as I can, and green veggies to bring my hemoglobin back to normal. Breakfast and dinner, are where I can eat the most. Watching a movie right now, Pride and glory we will see how much of it I will actually understand.
I am thinking of attempting a car ride, wich mean that I would need to go and walk the hallway, down the stairs, walk and sit in the car. I don’t know if it is realistic as just my short shower standing up kill me every time. Plus, after the operation coming back home, was very painful. We will see. Funny how little normal thing in life get to be so complicated when you are sick. I usually helped people on the street, going down the stairs in the subway with a cane, open the door to someone in the wheelchairs etc. I will really make a point from now one, to do it even more. Every little attentions and help, mean so much. And it is so great when someone think of doing something without you asking for it.
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I went for my car ride, we didn’t go far as bump and turn hurt my stomach but it was so nice to be outside. I really needed that. Nothing better then riding your car with your husband and it was really refreshing. Tomorrow, usually I would play baseball, but I obviously can’t for the rest of the season, I want Randy to go, I don’t think I will have anyone to stay here with me, so Randy doesn’t want to leave me alone, but I am forcing Randy to go, he needs to change his mind and have some fun, plus, the workout will be good. I am having dinner right now, eating some linguini with my favorite marinara sauce and some ground beef. Bless my husband as he can cook! They say that eating meat will help to heal the wound, weird. Anyway, I need to eat as much red meat as I can, and green veggies to bring my hemoglobin back to normal. Breakfast and dinner, are where I can eat the most. Watching a movie right now, Pride and glory we will see how much of it I will actually understand.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Day 6: home and not ready to leave...
Friday, aaaw lovely, not that I am doing anything of my day, but hey my hubby will be with me for 2 days. My sister has been taking really good care of myself, and I love the fact that her cooking is similar to mine. She made me some nice Quinoa muffin with blueberry. And for lunch she made an avocado and tomato cherry salad, with lime dressing. And then some marinated zucchinis, and some pieces of steak with leeks and tomato garlic sauce. It was so good. It felt great to eat so healthy and yummy. I got beautiful flower today from our lovely friend Tina, and Joe, my only follower on this blog actually LOL thanks for the support Tina. The florist knocked so loud I thought I was going to have a heart attack, it actually did hurt my stomach. I felt like screaming, are you crazy? Of course, I couldn’t answer the door, as by the time I get there he would be gone anyway. Being so weak it would be pretty dumb to open the door. The highlight of my day today was to talk to Papa George which I adore, (Randy’s dad) it is always so great to talk to him and so comforting. He was at work, but he still took the time to talk to me, so I updated him on the operation and we chatted on other subjects. At the end, I told him how Randy loves him and I was trying not to get too emotional but it was hard. I am still very emotional when I talk to people I care about. He lives in Los Angeles, California, so we don’t see him too often.
I eat breakfast on the balcony which was really nice. There was no sun so it was very refreshing. Last thing of the day, I wanted to take a walk in the hallway and I thought there is never anybody anyway, so here I am with my really short shorts, Randy’s t-Shirt, no make-up, hair not done, and I am finally at the end of the hallway, and the guy neighbors coming home, and I was standing so tired at his door. Damn you!
Pain wise today was stable, scar itching a bit, but I think it is from the tape over it, it is starting to bother me. I still can’t walk upright yet, and my 4 minutes shower killed me, my back was killing me. It is weird how my back is so weak. Appetite: still can’t eat a lot at the time, but I eat very often during the day, and once I feel hungry I need the food right then, as I get then very nauseous. Poo-Poo friend, J is back to normal finally. Energy still very low, when I wake up I have so much energy then a bit later I am so tired. It is up and down the whole day. My voice is not normal, I am not sure why, maybe because I am so weak. I also find that talking louder, like if my sister or Randy is in the kitchen and I need to talk louder it is really exhausting.
But hey another day closer to feel better. I am now at my first week anniversary after my operation, where is the champagne?
I eat breakfast on the balcony which was really nice. There was no sun so it was very refreshing. Last thing of the day, I wanted to take a walk in the hallway and I thought there is never anybody anyway, so here I am with my really short shorts, Randy’s t-Shirt, no make-up, hair not done, and I am finally at the end of the hallway, and the guy neighbors coming home, and I was standing so tired at his door. Damn you!
Pain wise today was stable, scar itching a bit, but I think it is from the tape over it, it is starting to bother me. I still can’t walk upright yet, and my 4 minutes shower killed me, my back was killing me. It is weird how my back is so weak. Appetite: still can’t eat a lot at the time, but I eat very often during the day, and once I feel hungry I need the food right then, as I get then very nauseous. Poo-Poo friend, J is back to normal finally. Energy still very low, when I wake up I have so much energy then a bit later I am so tired. It is up and down the whole day. My voice is not normal, I am not sure why, maybe because I am so weak. I also find that talking louder, like if my sister or Randy is in the kitchen and I need to talk louder it is really exhausting.
But hey another day closer to feel better. I am now at my first week anniversary after my operation, where is the champagne?
Day 5
I lied down the whole afternoon yesterday. Feel not too bad, called for the follow up appointment, it is August 13, and it seems so freaking far!!! I was on hold for 11 minutes then she answered the phone and said: “if you could hold a bit”, and I felt like saying I thought that is what I was doing already, she then put me on hold for 7 more minutes. Then she came and asked me for a number, I couldn’t understand a thing about the whole number question, so I said you need my phone number? She repeated what she needed, and then I said my home number? Then she said more rudely, your card number, so I finally understood. Of course my wallet was not beside me, so I said in an irritated tone, let me try to get up and get it. She kept asking me questions, phone number, name, address etc, while I was trying to get up and clearly in pain. By the time I reached the wallet she didn't need it anymore, neither were the card in my wallet. I felt like telling her how much of a bitch she was today. :-) She said that she had an appointment for August 13 and I said I needed it for the first week of August, then added are you sure you don't have anything then? She wasn't too pleased with my question. I didn't really care. She gave me the smart: “I have either July 18, or August 13, which one would you like”? I almost said, why don't you go F... yourself, you well know that July 18 is in 3 freaking days. This would not have helped the situation, I think? So I said I will stick to the August 13. Then I hang up. If I get there on August 13 and I don't have an appointment I won’t be too surprised!
This morning my husband went back to work, and my sister will be with me until next Friday. 2 minutes after Randy left the house, my very tall glass of water got spilled everywhere. I looked at the water so discouraged, as we have a wood floor, and it was right in the spot where I need to get up, so I didn't know what to do. I managed to get up, and put a towel over it. When my sister arrived at 9:30 she had to clean it up. Good start!! I was so craving pancake, but can’t have the fat and oily one, so I was so happy when my sister arrived with the red mills buckwheat pancake cooked with no oil. We put bananas and strawberry on it and a tiny bit of honey, it was so delicious! I could eat that everyday! I am going to try to go sit on our balcony for a bit today, but I have to wait a bit as I just took a shower and my scar is burning from standing up a bit longer. Sucks, and annoying! It is kind of nice though not to care about makeup and hair, although I look like a “mmm” don’t know what I should called myself? Let’s try an homeless looking woman mixted with a drunk woman and someone who hasn’t sleep for days. I am very pretty ladies and gentleman right now. My face is also so pale that I could be the Geisha in the movie Miss Butterfly. I wouldn’t even need the white powder.
It is weird as when I touch my belly I don’t have any sensation. I know I touch it, because I am doing it myself but I can’t feel anything. It is normal and feeling should be coming back after a while. I hope so. J I don’t want to be cooking against the stove and get a burn tummy because I can’t feel anything. My feet are so cold today, weird as it is so warm inside.
This morning my husband went back to work, and my sister will be with me until next Friday. 2 minutes after Randy left the house, my very tall glass of water got spilled everywhere. I looked at the water so discouraged, as we have a wood floor, and it was right in the spot where I need to get up, so I didn't know what to do. I managed to get up, and put a towel over it. When my sister arrived at 9:30 she had to clean it up. Good start!! I was so craving pancake, but can’t have the fat and oily one, so I was so happy when my sister arrived with the red mills buckwheat pancake cooked with no oil. We put bananas and strawberry on it and a tiny bit of honey, it was so delicious! I could eat that everyday! I am going to try to go sit on our balcony for a bit today, but I have to wait a bit as I just took a shower and my scar is burning from standing up a bit longer. Sucks, and annoying! It is kind of nice though not to care about makeup and hair, although I look like a “mmm” don’t know what I should called myself? Let’s try an homeless looking woman mixted with a drunk woman and someone who hasn’t sleep for days. I am very pretty ladies and gentleman right now. My face is also so pale that I could be the Geisha in the movie Miss Butterfly. I wouldn’t even need the white powder.
It is weird as when I touch my belly I don’t have any sensation. I know I touch it, because I am doing it myself but I can’t feel anything. It is normal and feeling should be coming back after a while. I hope so. J I don’t want to be cooking against the stove and get a burn tummy because I can’t feel anything. My feet are so cold today, weird as it is so warm inside.
Well, since I know now how to upload picture, faster now to post! I have received from our very good friend Joe and Tina some beautifyl flower this morning. It is so nice to have surprises and cheery messages. I am surprise though that it wasn't a steak that they sent me. Well, this is an inside joke, and I hear Tina laughing right now. Thank you so much!! I love those daisy gerbera, they are my favorite! Always been.
My work sent me some beautiful flower, that was a couple of days ago, but I just figured out how to post it here LOL Message: "Nadia, sending you all our love and wishes for a speedy recovery. Can't wait for you to come back! Love Rogers Family". I have them by the side of my bed and look at them all the time. When I received them I cried.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Laughing is NOT funny.
I can’t laugh as it feels like my inside is tearing up and the scare is opening, it is so painful. I wish I could describe it as well as it feels. My husband is forbidden of any funny remark, which is really difficult for both of us, his sense of humor is what attracted to him at first, well, among many other things. I am not watching any funny TV show either. We started to watch Rescue me, and after 10 minutes I had to ask him to turn it off, this show is so funny. The funny thing is I just want to laugh so badly, I want to laughs hysterically, like if everything is so much fun. I usually like to laugh all the time, so that is a punishment. Every time I laugh, my scar burn for about 20 minutes, pretty scary I am telling you! My husband who always has funny come back, sometime tell me something and it is not even funny but because I am so used of his funny come back I laugh, so I always have to tell him to get out of my face, as if he stay close to me, then I will keep laughing until I cry of pain. I think when my stomach will be back to normal I am going to laugh for a full week without stopping. I wonder if the elderly lady with the nice warmth sleeper is laughing? LOL
Day: let me think here. . . monday, tuesday, wednesday, Yes Day Fourth! I got it!
It is incredible how your abs is used for everything. Lying down, getting up, walking. Sitting. I can’t blow my nose and it is pretty annoying. When I left the hospital the nurse said that for about 3 days, I will cry a lot for no reason. I thought, mm ya right, well she was damn right. You sometime feel so emotional and you cry so much it is ridiculous. Even more ridiculous is you can’t blow your nose, so your are in pretty bad shape then. Yesterday morning my work sent me some beautiful flower, really awesome, and the note made me cry so much, it said: "Sending all our love and wishes for a speedy recovery. Can’t wait for you to come back! Love Rogers Family". I just cried so much after. I am in the fourth day today, so I hope this is going to go away now.
Today, I feel very tired, I slept in until 10, yesterday took 2 naps. I took more pills today. I guess it is normal, as I have been feeling pretty good up to now. I am already kind of bored, but in the same time, I am a bit out of it so I don’t really see the day passing, it is weird. I had nightmare last night and again woke up at 4 in pain, every night, always at 4 o’clock. Then start the long process of getting up, going to the washroom, and coming back trying to get back to sleep. Lying down is ok, although my back is really in pain, from lying down, from sitting half way. From walking half bent over. There is no way I can stand up straight, pretty annoying, my tummy is going down a little now. Since the operation my belly look like I am 6 months pregnant. Now it is like a 5 month and 3 week and a half LOL slowly but hey can’t get depress about that right now.
I am eating very little still, a bit everytime, but all the time, pretty annoying. I am drinking about a bit under a liter or water, annoying as then I need to pee and get up, but better that then a bladder infection. Since I had a catherer in at the hospital, I can pee but I have to force the rest out, for the past 2 days that has been more difficult. (Aren’t you happy to know all about this?) Maybe I am just tired of it, who would know that peeing and passing gas would be so difficult and energy consuming. How are you suppose to pass gaz, if you have you’re ass, oups, let’s be polite here, butt, against the mattress, and by the time you move a bit well it is gone and will not come back for a long time, but your tummy keep rumbling and rumbling like if there is a tornado in there. Or is there a UFC fight going on in there, and I wasn’t told?
By the way, I am also in a haze, and most of the time dont read back what I write. If I do, I then realise that I write word that is not even related to the conversation, pretty weird, that with my french backgroud, I feel pitty for all of you who are reading me. LOL
Today, I feel very tired, I slept in until 10, yesterday took 2 naps. I took more pills today. I guess it is normal, as I have been feeling pretty good up to now. I am already kind of bored, but in the same time, I am a bit out of it so I don’t really see the day passing, it is weird. I had nightmare last night and again woke up at 4 in pain, every night, always at 4 o’clock. Then start the long process of getting up, going to the washroom, and coming back trying to get back to sleep. Lying down is ok, although my back is really in pain, from lying down, from sitting half way. From walking half bent over. There is no way I can stand up straight, pretty annoying, my tummy is going down a little now. Since the operation my belly look like I am 6 months pregnant. Now it is like a 5 month and 3 week and a half LOL slowly but hey can’t get depress about that right now.
I am eating very little still, a bit everytime, but all the time, pretty annoying. I am drinking about a bit under a liter or water, annoying as then I need to pee and get up, but better that then a bladder infection. Since I had a catherer in at the hospital, I can pee but I have to force the rest out, for the past 2 days that has been more difficult. (Aren’t you happy to know all about this?) Maybe I am just tired of it, who would know that peeing and passing gas would be so difficult and energy consuming. How are you suppose to pass gaz, if you have you’re ass, oups, let’s be polite here, butt, against the mattress, and by the time you move a bit well it is gone and will not come back for a long time, but your tummy keep rumbling and rumbling like if there is a tornado in there. Or is there a UFC fight going on in there, and I wasn’t told?
By the way, I am also in a haze, and most of the time dont read back what I write. If I do, I then realise that I write word that is not even related to the conversation, pretty weird, that with my french backgroud, I feel pitty for all of you who are reading me. LOL
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
The wake up call, and first day at the hospital
After the operation, a nurse come and wake you up, and take your blood pressure, heart rate etc. I was amazed how awake I was after, I didn't have my glasses so I couldn't see anything, but there was a lot of people walking, and people who just had their operation. I clearly remember that part, however, now that I think of it, I don't remember afterward, I don't recall them bringing me back to my room, or switching me bed. I remember waking up with my husband kissing my forehead, and to see his face was so comforting. I asked him what the doctor told him. Dr. Kives, told him that everything went very well, that they removed more then it was planned, instead of 2 fibroids, she had to removed 4 of them, which was also a surprise to her. One was the size of an orange, 2 was the size of a prune, and the last one was the size of a clementine, no wonder why I always felt like crap and I coudn't breath, nautious, or I was going to the washroom every 2 hours at night, and every 30-45 minutes during the day. I lost a lot of blood during the operation as fibroids are full of blood vessel, before my operation my hemoglobine was at 138 and it dropped to 68. Dr. Kives came out and told her concern to my husband as she new how concern I was to take someone else blood, thinking of it now, it was really thoughtfull of her to do so, as I did sign a approval form to received someone else blood in absolute necessary situation. My husband asked if they took all the blood that I have banked, and she said OMG I didn't realised she did this, so she ran inside and ordered for my own blood to be given back to me. I think few people realised that before an operation some hospital will let you store your own blood. This made me feel so safe, and I so appreciated the respect that my doctor had for me on the subject. After giving me back my blood my hemoglobine was at 115, which is not the greatest, but she said it was enough. It feel so good to be delivered of those fibroids, I always felt so fat because of the big bump I had in my stomach. Once I was awake enough they explain to me the morphine thing, I was able to give my own morphine, every 5 minutes you can receive a dose. I thought I pressed it a lot but once i was Discharge she told me I didn't. The only thing, is I couldn't never remember when I pressed it last time, so I pressed it a lot for nothing as if it is more then once every 5 minutes the machine wont release it.
The first night, I had a catherer and I will tell you this, it was so nice not to have to go to the washroom, everytime a nurse came I asked her for 2 cups of chips ice. Having lost so much blood I was so thirsty, so I think in total I had 12 cups, or chips ice. That was so smart of me, as the day after they removed my caterer, and from now one, hell started. I was a bit put off from the people beside us, I had a semi-private room and the lady didn't speak english she was spanish and the visiting hours was from 11-9pm. She had people coming in at 7 in the morning and they were talking so freaking loud, until 10 pm, at one point she had 7 peoples, we talked to the nurse and the nurse couldn't understand how the hell they were able to get in the room so early. After finally all people left, 2 more come until 10 pm, and I thought they were nurse, but then I heard them saying in spanish that the visiting hours were until 9. The nurse came and I told her, and she went to them, and said are you nurse from another department and they said no, and they pretended that they didn't know that the visiting hours were until 9pm. They finally left. The day after they did the same thing, but this time, I told them off, at 9:oo when all people left, 2 came in again, and I patiently waited for 5 minutes. I felt screaming in spanish, shut the f.. up. but hey I am a civilized person, so I said very loud, do you mind, I am trying to rest here, and visiting hours is now passed, they gave me attitude and said we are leaving anyway, and I said good. LOL So rude of them. All the nurse were amazing, they were so nice and patient, and great. It was really nice to be treated so well. I think the attitude you have though make a big difference. I didn't really sleep that night, but with my ipod it made a big difference, it help me to stay calm and keep my mind occupied.
The morning from 8 to 11, seemed so long and boring, I just wanted to see my husband, and hearing all those people beside was pretty annoying. My husband was pretty annoying at that as well, as he said that if he would have known he would have come way earlier then 11. Once they saw my husband they were quieter, I wonder why LOL
That day they removed my caterer and the great feeling I had not to have to pie during the time I had it went to the garbage, as now you have to get up and it is so painfull when you do, and you sit on the toilet and wait and wait and nothing happen. You turn the faucet on, thinking the water will help you, and nothing, very frustrating, the only thing that help me is I asked my sister to get me a glass of water with ice chip in it, and I slowly put drop and that water on my legs, it did help. Finally, but the thing is at first you pie so little, then you go back to your bed, and you need to pie again, so annoying. Specially that getting up from your bed will take you about 10 minutes, and getting in is even longer. It is so painfull, walking is also difficult as you canot walk in a straight position but you have to be bend down a bit, my back is killing me actually because of it. I am very thankfull for all the hard core workout I did, push up, shoulder, biceps walking push up, burpies, etc, as you really need your upper body to do everything.
From the minute I went back to my room after the operation, well maybe a couple of hours, I was hungry, I was told that I needed to pass gaz before eating. Not so obvious my friend, not so obvious. The nurse was so surprised I was already hungry, she said it was very very rare, ha! well welcome to Nadia's world were you are always hungry no mater what! LOL Finally Sunday morning I was able to get breakfast, they brought me the juice and I said nope, I can have food today, so I had to wait 1:30 for the new tray. It was the worst breakfast ever! I told them I was lactose intolerent, BAD mistakes, I should just have dealt with the bloatiness. Rice toast, you couldn't even chew it, neiter can you brake it with you hand, who eat that? Hard boiled eggs, EEEEEEEEWWWWWW! I tryed the cereal, corn flake looking, with lactose free amazingly disgusting milk, so I called my hubby who was on his way and asked for a bagel, I was able to eat one quarter of it, then during the day, I finished it here and there. Driving back home was very difficult as even if Randy was driving as slow as he could, every bump, every turn hurt you so much.
Once we got home, climbing the stairs wasn't as bad as I thought. But once I had to lye down, it was terrible, I miss the hospital bed as every part you can put it up or down. We tryed the bed, nope not possible, then Randy put pillows, and blanket on the futon, ouch! so He tought that if he put the matress of the futon higher, it might work, so he took some suit case out and put it at the end of the futon furniture and put the matress up, what a genius! I have been using it, as it is like I am in a semi position, at night to sleep thought the leather coach is better for me.
The most comfortable place in the house is the toilette LOL, I can sit and rest my back against the toilette seat.. so sometime I just sit there for 10-20 minutes. Pretty funny. At first Randy kept coming and asking if I was ok, then he knew better so he come only if I call him. The best moment yesterday is when I was able to lye on a bunch of blanket scrunch together on our bed and take a nap holding my husband hand with the windows open beside and the wind and sun coming in.
The first night, I had a catherer and I will tell you this, it was so nice not to have to go to the washroom, everytime a nurse came I asked her for 2 cups of chips ice. Having lost so much blood I was so thirsty, so I think in total I had 12 cups, or chips ice. That was so smart of me, as the day after they removed my caterer, and from now one, hell started. I was a bit put off from the people beside us, I had a semi-private room and the lady didn't speak english she was spanish and the visiting hours was from 11-9pm. She had people coming in at 7 in the morning and they were talking so freaking loud, until 10 pm, at one point she had 7 peoples, we talked to the nurse and the nurse couldn't understand how the hell they were able to get in the room so early. After finally all people left, 2 more come until 10 pm, and I thought they were nurse, but then I heard them saying in spanish that the visiting hours were until 9. The nurse came and I told her, and she went to them, and said are you nurse from another department and they said no, and they pretended that they didn't know that the visiting hours were until 9pm. They finally left. The day after they did the same thing, but this time, I told them off, at 9:oo when all people left, 2 came in again, and I patiently waited for 5 minutes. I felt screaming in spanish, shut the f.. up. but hey I am a civilized person, so I said very loud, do you mind, I am trying to rest here, and visiting hours is now passed, they gave me attitude and said we are leaving anyway, and I said good. LOL So rude of them. All the nurse were amazing, they were so nice and patient, and great. It was really nice to be treated so well. I think the attitude you have though make a big difference. I didn't really sleep that night, but with my ipod it made a big difference, it help me to stay calm and keep my mind occupied.
The morning from 8 to 11, seemed so long and boring, I just wanted to see my husband, and hearing all those people beside was pretty annoying. My husband was pretty annoying at that as well, as he said that if he would have known he would have come way earlier then 11. Once they saw my husband they were quieter, I wonder why LOL
That day they removed my caterer and the great feeling I had not to have to pie during the time I had it went to the garbage, as now you have to get up and it is so painfull when you do, and you sit on the toilet and wait and wait and nothing happen. You turn the faucet on, thinking the water will help you, and nothing, very frustrating, the only thing that help me is I asked my sister to get me a glass of water with ice chip in it, and I slowly put drop and that water on my legs, it did help. Finally, but the thing is at first you pie so little, then you go back to your bed, and you need to pie again, so annoying. Specially that getting up from your bed will take you about 10 minutes, and getting in is even longer. It is so painfull, walking is also difficult as you canot walk in a straight position but you have to be bend down a bit, my back is killing me actually because of it. I am very thankfull for all the hard core workout I did, push up, shoulder, biceps walking push up, burpies, etc, as you really need your upper body to do everything.
From the minute I went back to my room after the operation, well maybe a couple of hours, I was hungry, I was told that I needed to pass gaz before eating. Not so obvious my friend, not so obvious. The nurse was so surprised I was already hungry, she said it was very very rare, ha! well welcome to Nadia's world were you are always hungry no mater what! LOL Finally Sunday morning I was able to get breakfast, they brought me the juice and I said nope, I can have food today, so I had to wait 1:30 for the new tray. It was the worst breakfast ever! I told them I was lactose intolerent, BAD mistakes, I should just have dealt with the bloatiness. Rice toast, you couldn't even chew it, neiter can you brake it with you hand, who eat that? Hard boiled eggs, EEEEEEEEWWWWWW! I tryed the cereal, corn flake looking, with lactose free amazingly disgusting milk, so I called my hubby who was on his way and asked for a bagel, I was able to eat one quarter of it, then during the day, I finished it here and there. Driving back home was very difficult as even if Randy was driving as slow as he could, every bump, every turn hurt you so much.
Once we got home, climbing the stairs wasn't as bad as I thought. But once I had to lye down, it was terrible, I miss the hospital bed as every part you can put it up or down. We tryed the bed, nope not possible, then Randy put pillows, and blanket on the futon, ouch! so He tought that if he put the matress of the futon higher, it might work, so he took some suit case out and put it at the end of the futon furniture and put the matress up, what a genius! I have been using it, as it is like I am in a semi position, at night to sleep thought the leather coach is better for me.
The most comfortable place in the house is the toilette LOL, I can sit and rest my back against the toilette seat.. so sometime I just sit there for 10-20 minutes. Pretty funny. At first Randy kept coming and asking if I was ok, then he knew better so he come only if I call him. The best moment yesterday is when I was able to lye on a bunch of blanket scrunch together on our bed and take a nap holding my husband hand with the windows open beside and the wind and sun coming in.
Monday, July 13, 2009
The day of...
We had our appointment for 12:30pm and they asked us to be there for 10:00 for preparation. At 11:00 we were still waiting so we kind of wondered if maybe we did something wrong in the check in process as 6 people came and went before me. So Randy asked the nurse why and was told it was because my doctor had 4 surgeries scheduled that day and she was running late. Hey take your time, don't rush your surgery, I rather wait and you come to me rested and not stressed. We were waiting in the rocking room, called that because it only has rocking chairs in there. Not something you want to do when you didn't eat since midnight the day prior, rocking will make you dizzy... So finally at 11:45 we were called in. We were brought to a room and I was asked to change myself to a lovely pair of pyjamas, and a robe. Really not lovely but at least now they gave you a robe so your butt is not coming out on the back end. I have to say though I did appreciate the warm blanket they brought me, HOWEVER, a lady in front of my room had heating slippers. WHY? because she is 90 or something? She can have them and not me , come on!! Randy suggested that we go steal them. For those who don't know us, we do have a sick sens of humour,but we never act on it.
The first person came and asked me questions, such as did you eat, are you allergic to anythingg etc. Then a second one came and did a blood test to be sure I was not pregnant, and that my hemoglobin was good to go. A third person came and asked the same questions than the first one, and all of them kept asking me if I am really Nadia Murphy. I don't know if they are scared of people coming in and stealing operations or what? She also asked me what kind of surgery I was having. You think a French people will remember medical terms? I hardly remember my name at that point. So she showed me my files and I was having an open Myomectomy. So I said "Uh I thought I was having a closed myomectomy so it wouldn't be so painful". She looked at me, and started laughing. She was actually really nice, then my doctor came in, and my face lift up, as I adore her and totally trusted her. We talked a bit. I asked her about her wedding LOL I know maybe I should focus on me instead of making conversation. Weird as I was so stressed the month and weeks prior to that day, I was not stressed anymore at all, and was very calm. Well I guess being out of it from no food doesn't help.
They took me to the operation room, there is no more wheeling you in the operation room, unless you are that elderly lady with the heated slipper, Tssss. The operation room was really nice actually nothing what you see on TV. A nice beige color, and curtain. You have that pillow, round plastic thing for your head, (I have to say it is very comfortable) Then they bring you an other nice warm blanket, that feels like it is just coming out of the dryer. So comforting. They talk to you, and they make you breath something, and tell you that you will feel a bit numb after, A BIT? You totally feel weird after. I was shown how to breath in like if I was new to this. Then the real thing came, 'Woo-hoo attach your belt it will make you gone in a second. I think the lady asked me to count up or down, but I wasn't sure and frankly didn't have time. I was gone, baby gone in lala land. . .
The first person came and asked me questions, such as did you eat, are you allergic to anythingg etc. Then a second one came and did a blood test to be sure I was not pregnant, and that my hemoglobin was good to go. A third person came and asked the same questions than the first one, and all of them kept asking me if I am really Nadia Murphy. I don't know if they are scared of people coming in and stealing operations or what? She also asked me what kind of surgery I was having. You think a French people will remember medical terms? I hardly remember my name at that point. So she showed me my files and I was having an open Myomectomy. So I said "Uh I thought I was having a closed myomectomy so it wouldn't be so painful". She looked at me, and started laughing. She was actually really nice, then my doctor came in, and my face lift up, as I adore her and totally trusted her. We talked a bit. I asked her about her wedding LOL I know maybe I should focus on me instead of making conversation. Weird as I was so stressed the month and weeks prior to that day, I was not stressed anymore at all, and was very calm. Well I guess being out of it from no food doesn't help.
They took me to the operation room, there is no more wheeling you in the operation room, unless you are that elderly lady with the heated slipper, Tssss. The operation room was really nice actually nothing what you see on TV. A nice beige color, and curtain. You have that pillow, round plastic thing for your head, (I have to say it is very comfortable) Then they bring you an other nice warm blanket, that feels like it is just coming out of the dryer. So comforting. They talk to you, and they make you breath something, and tell you that you will feel a bit numb after, A BIT? You totally feel weird after. I was shown how to breath in like if I was new to this. Then the real thing came, 'Woo-hoo attach your belt it will make you gone in a second. I think the lady asked me to count up or down, but I wasn't sure and frankly didn't have time. I was gone, baby gone in lala land. . .
Welcome to my Blog!
Welcome to my blog. I am bed rested from a Myomectomy, and clearly need to keep myself busy. I thought to create a blog to keep me busy but also for anyone else that will need to go through the same surgery, it might help you.
Hope you will enjoy it, and I hope that it will keep you entertained.
Nad.
Hope you will enjoy it, and I hope that it will keep you entertained.
Nad.
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