July 26, 2010

According this link:

http://pregnancy.about.com/cs/pregnancycalendar/l/blpregcalc.htm

03/31/2011 that would be the due date of the baby. Isn’t it crazy and so perfect, I always felt that having a baby early spring would be better as the weather would get better and much easier to walk with baby outside. Of course, now that I am thinking about it, the baby would come probably 2 weeks earlier, as I have to have a C section. I am starting to pee so many times during the night, at least every 2 hours. Pretty annoying I must say! I am going to write to Papa George, to start putting something together for Randy as to how or when I will announce it to both of them. I am going to ask him if I can send him a writing letter and he could maybe write it to him. I have been more tired and I am trying to keep up with the gym so I don’t end up like last time, not exercising at all, and feeling like shit and ugly. I had to tell my trainer and made her promise not to tell Randy at all. She told me not to do the Monday boot camp unless it is not too hot. And use less weight. I talked to my brother today and he might go to QC in September around the 17^th it would be so perfect if we could go. I could then tell him in person. It is rather difficult going around without telling people. I am surprise that Randy is not noticing the bruise and my arm from the blood test, he usually see all of that. It is pretty dark still since last Wednesday, I still didn’t hear back from them. My god, how long will that take!!!

July 25, 2010

I now have my braces on, and to be frank I am a total bitch to my husband. I have hypoglycemia and I can’t eat unless it is puree, so I am very miserable. I don’t want to take Tylenol because of the baby, so I am so miserable. Randy not knowing that I am pregnant keep telling me to take some, so today I pretended to have one. I am also pretending that my period came, so my husband would not think that I am pregnant. I realize now with the braces and everything else, it is really difficult not to tell him.

July 23, 2010

I was kind of hoping that the blood test result would come back today to confirm exactly how many weeks I am. I am so hungry already. Tomorrow I am getting braces, and won’t be able to take any pain relief. I am going to buy a food processor tonight so that should make thing easier, hopefully. This morning I was extremely sensitive. On my way to work, I was watching Julie and Julia and I kept having tear coming up for no reason. In the morning my energy level is pretty good, then I end in the afternoon from 2:30 and I can’t think anymore, and I stare at my screen not knowing what am I suppose to do. Pretty annoying.

July 22, 2010

Last night we went to Costco, and once there, I closed the windows on Randy by accident, and he got impatient, so I went back and forth with him, which we rarely do. Then later, he kept talking about it, and he kept saying, why are you so sensitive, and why are you crying, I felt like screaming: because I am pregnant asshole. I stop myself thinking that my hormones are not normal and it wouldn’t be the best way for him to get to know the news.

lol this morning my ob called back, I went to pick up some paper and went for a blood test so we know exactly how many weeks I am. And she is also sending me for an Obstetrical Ultrasound. I am going to fax the paper at work this afternoon. It is actually really hard not to tell my husband, I will have to fake a period if not, he will know I am pregnant. I am very emotional, I saw a little girl with her mom this morning, and she kept smiling at me, with such a gorgeous smile, and I had tear in my eyes. I have to prepare myself at work, as if it is like last time, my brain will go gaga pretty soon. And I am eating super healthy since last time, by month 2, I could not stand veggies and fruit and all I wanted was burger and fries. I so could eat a McDonald burger right now! 21 days!!

July 21, 2010

I had a hard time to sleep last night, and was wondering if it is already starting, insomnia, not being comfortable. I went by the food court today and I couldn’t stand the smell of the food, I wonder why a pregnant woman have such a hard time with smell? I should Google it. Actually it is one of the reasons I took the test yesterday, I

Opened a container and the smell just made me feel so sick. I have still the discomfort in lower stomach and lower back, I remember from my first pregnancy how annoying it is. I have called this morning my OB and I am waiting for her call back, since I had a miscarriage earlier this year, she asked me to call her right away once I know I am pregnant. It is also because of my blood type, being A negative, first baby was rejected, I did get the RH needle but I am still a bit nervous. I have a better feeling for this time though and I am trying my very best to stay calm. Last night it was so difficult not to tell my husband. I can’t believe that there is 21 left days before he leaves for Texas, at least while he is in Texas it will be easier not to tell him.

July 20, 2010

Life take away, life bless you. Life make you sad, life bring you joy and happiness. Today being around my period, I couldn’t stand anymore to wonder if. I knew it would be either a waste of $16.00, again, or it would be the one. I was more aiming toward wasting money, but at least I would know. I went to Shoppers drug mart in the Eaton center, bought a test, and went back to my floor and did the test. I was shocked to see that it showed pregnant, 1-2 weeks. It explained why I was so tired in the morning, and has that little spasm under my rib cage for about 2 weeks now, why I am clumsier and walk into walls, the pressure in my lower back, and the discomfort in my stomach. I stayed sitting on the toilette not being able to move, and had tear in my eyes. I felt so emotional that after I had no energy left. A normal wife would have called her husband right away, but I feel that I can’t tell him right now. He is studying to be a fire fighter and in August 12 he will go to Texas to complete his course for 2 weeks. Since he is such a caring husband, and because I already had a miscarriage in April, I know he would be worry and would not concentrate on his study. I am then, entering, as of today, a long 22 days without telling him. I don’t know if I will be able to do so, but I thought it would be so cool to send a letter to his dad, who leaves in Los Angeles, and the day of his graduation his dad would announced him the great news. I could be selfish, and share that moment with my husband, but I know how this would make him feel so happy to be with his dad when announcing it.

This weekend I am getting braces, which mean I will not be able to take any pain medication, I am not looking forward that but I know it will be safer for baby. I certainly whish now, I had done my hair color last week, as I thought I should. Now, I am stuck with 3 months with grey hair and roots. I have a better feeling already with this little baby. First one, I never had a secure feeling and little baby that I later lost, made me so sick, I am hoping with this one it will be better. It is weird to know that you have a life growing inside of you. As I did with my open myomectomy, I am going to be true as to how I feel, good and bad.

X- Fibroids

I never thought I would get back into a good exercise training program, recovery has been long. When doc. say be patient, that is all you need, be patient! I am doing a bootcamp 3 times a week, and a personal training. I thought my core was really weak, until the trainer told me otherwise, it did make me feel so much better. After my miscarriage, I have been through a lot and emotionally it has been really difficult. My OB told me that everything is now fine and that we could try again. I needed some time to get in shape and feel better.

My scar is looking really good and it does not bother me at all, thank you to the doctor for doing such a good job ! By the way, for you reading this blog, I am french native, so if something my writing doesn't make sense in english that is why. :-)

Someone wrote me a few days ago saying that my blog helped her, it made me really happy and decided to keep on going with this. After surgery pregnancy that is...........