It is so wonderful!

I can't believe how time fly. I am now at 26 weeks (6 month, 2 week). My belly is huge, I keep joking that maybe there is a twin in there, they just didn't see it yet. I am feeling really good. OK, of course there is the tiredness, and going to the washroom every hour and all. But just feeling this little one inside of me moving make you smile right away.

We got to know that we are having a baby girl and we are so excited about it! Baby is kicking a lot and for the past week now, it is not only kicking but i feel her like brushing inside. It feel so weird and great! My husband has been feeling the baby moving now. We are having another ultrasound January 6 and I am very excited about it. It always make me feel so good to see her and knowing that all is good. I don't often post a picture of myself in here, actually I think I never did, but I thought to do so today and show my big belly. OK, my smile is pretty lame, I am wearing braces, so I never know how to smile since. :-) We have just received the crib, graciously bought by my husband's dad! I can't wait to put it together!

For those who had an open myomectomie, I am the proof that you can definitely get pregnant after and have a baby. The wait is totally worth it.
I will update this post in a few weeks.

What's up?

So, it has been a while and I am promising myself to write again here. I am now at a 17 weeks (4 months, 1 week) and I have to say that I am feeling great. I started feeling the baby for the past 2 weeks, it is really cool! It feels like a little fish swimming in your stomach, and I understand now why they say it feels like gas. My belly is sticking out, more then I thought. The nautiouness is now gone, or almost and I feel much better! I was getting headache and someone suggested I wasn't eating enough, and they were right.

August 27, 2010, Friday

This morning I got up a tad bit more rested. I slept a bit better and I need that for a couple of days as I am so tired. That is all I keep writing here. Tired and need poo-poo friend to get the hell out of me. I had 12 inches subs today and I almost eat it all!!! Little piggy. So went to St Mikes this morning, went to get my requisition then went to the Ultrasound place. Baby seems fine after all, it is now 2.17cm, and I am precisely 8 weeks 6 days. The heart beat is at 188 which is normal. I did not hear the heartbeat, but I saw it. She showed it to me, a little spot got blurred then normal then blurred etc. It was pretty cool, I wish Randy would have been there. She also said that the baby moved as we were there. I went back to Dr. Kives and Maureen the nurse, read the ultrasound result, and told me that everything was fine. I think though she said I have a cyst on m ovaries, I won’t think about it right now. She asked me did you have sex maybe. And I said no chance my husband is in Texas for the past 2 weeks. I told her about the burning of my vagina, and she sent me to have a urine test in case I have bladder/yeast infection. That would make sense. I finally got to work at 10:00 and I had a message on my phone, and I thought who care. So I checked it only around 11:00 to find out that it was Randy. I really needed that and it helps me. He also called me a bit after lunch; he is now done with everything which is really great! He told me that the have hidden 7-8 clocks in the ceiling with different times on it. LOL so mean! The new crew is arriving tonight. I have to do the groceries and I am so tired. Anyway, Randy is getting home Sunday, so this is my last update as he will now read this and know more about how the past 2 months has been for me.

August 26, 2010, Thursday

OMG do I ever feel like shit! I couldn’t sleep until 2:30 again, and I am not well at all today, I have a dinner with Celia, which I already cancelled so I have to go. If I don’t start sleeping you will see me dropping somewhere and pretty soon. I am so tired and sick. I think I need to slow down on the milk products; I am itchy today, where my nose, and legs, that is usually the cream allergy. Weird. It is now 2:24 and I just want to drop on the floor. Randy just wrote me, that he passed his final exams with 92% and he passed all his hand on state skills exam, so now all he has to do in the morning, is his state skills written exam. I knew he would pass, I am so proud of him. I can’t wait for him to get back though, the load is getting heavier on my shoulder and I am exhausted, baby is not happy, he want to see daddy.

(…) I went to the washroom and there is blood, pinkish. I can’t go through this again, I just can’t. It will kill me of sadness. I am trying to stay calm but it is difficult, especially that I feel a bit of burning in my vagina, I think last time it did that too. I just cancelled Celia; I am going to go home. I called Dr. Kives, and was transferred to Maureen, I have left a message. I really can do this again. I am trying not to freak out, I can’t have Randy call me tonight I won’t be able to make it. In all day too, I am so exhausted. Fucking shit.

(…) I ended going out anyway with Celia; I thought that even if I stay home it won’t change anything. I got home at 8:00 way much later then I thought. Randy called. I knew I would be crying, I went to the bedroom and tried to act and sound as cheerful as I could. But tears were coming down and by the end I was crying. When I hung up, I stayed on the bed and cried non-stop for 10 minutes. I then watched some TV with Marie and then went to bed totally extenuated.

August 25, 2010, Wednesday

We are now Wednesday, such a long and dragging week! I just wrote Papa George to wish him a nice week. It is kind of sad that he probably didn't receive the card for Randy. I have such a hard time not to cry this morning, so tired. Last night I felt so desesprate, my sister was going for a run and I felt so alone, I started crying, so she said let's go together for the walk. I ended up walking but also running from home to Lawrence then I crossed to Avenue road to home. It felt so good! It was the first time running in so long. I am going to try to go for a walk again tonight. I am so exhausted I can't stand myself anymore. This is Randy last tough day today. I miss him terribly. I really need him to get home now and take care of me. Those last 9 weeks were awful.

August 23, 2010

Randy just called me he sounds down for 2 days in a row now. I can tell that he is so tired as I already told him I got a dress for Pete's wedding and he was surprise, and I said I told you, and he said no you said you just said you saw one. He asked me about the gift, and he said it is at home, and I said yes, and he said where did you buy it, and I said when will you learn that I will not tell you, then I said I bought it in the sex chop! LoL it is not a lie after all. This weekend was awful I literally stayed on the couch the whole weekend, although I did go to the gym today, did 20 minutes which felt like an hour, then I did some back work, and biceps. Nauseousness is not too bad lately. I think I am starting to feel hungry again. I am trying to get back to exercise again, which will be difficult but maybe it will help me.

August 21, 2010, Saturday

Yesterday was a tough day. Last night in particular, I kept crying and crying. Randy called and he kind of said impatiently you sound uptight, it really annoyed me. At the end of the conversation I was so trying not to cry. Then after I just kept crying and couldn't stop.when I got home I had to sleep a little bit for about an hour, then I cooked a quiche which turned out to be so gross! Then I cooked some chicken in tomato sauce and I lied down on the coach as I was so exhausted, and left it too long so it burned. I had nothing else to eat here, so we went and I bought fish and chips at the honey bistro and it was so disgusting. So I ended up not really eating anything. This second pregnancy, as of now I am not as nauseous but I am much more tired the little normal thing that I need to do constantly seem to be too much!! I have to do my grocery and I don't know how I am going to do it. Randy texted me tonight, he said his day was very tough but he was ok, I find a bit difficult that when we talked he doesn't really asked how I am doing, or maybe I just forget that he asks.